spring break boredom

2006-03-22 at 1:45 p.m.

hey.. after another prolonged absence, here i am again..

its spring break, and i'm one of the few staying in the dorms for the week. i really should get cracking on my liberal arts hw (creative writing!! which actually sounds exciting.. strange.. hw= exciting?) anyway, here i am with nothing unproductive to do, and being imaginative at this time of night is just not possible. i've just been surfing the net.. looking at friendster, facebook, myspace..

actually looking at friendster is what reminded me that i had a blog.. and then i looked at some friends back in spore that i kinda left behind me.. it made me sad to recall them... u noe, all those friends that you knew in sec schl, or even in jc.. and you dont really keep in contact with them anymore, not just because they werent close to you, but cuz you've moved on and become a different person, someone the other person can no longer talk easily to anymore, cuz it just a shock for them ... (lets just face it.. theres a limit to everything). theres only a select few that you actually feel like you could still carry out a conversation with without there being awkward silences. this is what happens when you move. this is what happens when you move on... sad as it may seem.. it takes effort to mend the holes when you make contact again. friendship takes effort.

looking at the faces of friends past and present, i cant help but feel some bittersweetness. looking at their photos, i know that they are but one snapshot of what lives they are leading now, and those photos cannot totally encompass the entirety of their lives now.. i will never know how they truly are at present..

on the other end of the spectrum, i've made new friends... and i'm learning more of them. we're going thru the college part of life together, and we're all learning things together.. and its not easy growing up. i'm a sheltered child in many ways, and i'm not afraid to admit that. i've been to some pretty crazy parties, and "crazy" is my point of view. i dunno.. maybe the same party would be labelled tame for some of the party animals here.. i enjoy myself, its true, but its all pretty exhausting. much too exhausting to go partying every nite.

enuf about all the deep stuff. i'm doing a piece by jose limon (hands up who knows who he is!, cuz i doubt any of u reading this know him). he's a famous modern choreographer here in US. he's a legende, and he has his own technique and company and school now.. (yes he was THAT influential).. well, he dead now, and one of his prodigies is teaching at boco (Boston Conservatory). she's setting a piece on us and it can get really confusing cuz she not very young, and we rely on her memory and a few videos for the steps. she's a great artist, no doubt about that, even at this age, she still can command a presence if she wants to. steps arent important to her... which is a breath of fresh air when you're used to hearing that ballet technique is the vocabulary with which the artist speaks. modern technique is far more flexible.

anyways, i've just finished watching bend it like beckham with cordelia in the common room downstairs. it's 1:18am now, and i should be getting to sleep. no sweat, its the holidays!! i should go and roam around chinatwon one of these days..

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